You would think after all this talk about mental illness, we would be getting somewhere positive to make an actual difference in society. I have seen and heard first hand how broken the system is. I understand why people do not "reach out for help" and end up in a terrible place. I would like... Continue Reading →
I am feeling a bit coocoo all the sudden today. I have been very open when it comes to my mental illnesses and struggles that come with that. Today, I am really in a deep errm, meditation?, with myself. The other day I saw a post on Facebook my cousin had shared and it included... Continue Reading →
I am coming to you out of a near panic attack state that won't wind down. Usually writing it out helps me feel better, so here I am. For the last 4 or 5 days I have been on the edge. Stupid petty things are becoming triggering again and I no longer can choke it... Continue Reading →
It takes a special kind of person to hold their composure when your anxiety is coming at them full force. I don't do well with large crowds; especially when my kids are rambunctious little beings. Yet, I can't avoid large crowds if I want to experience things, more so have my kids experience things. Yesterday... Continue Reading →
I have heard several times how people with mental illnesses are often really good at hiding it around other people. I am one of them. For a long time now, I have learned how to "fake it til you make it" when it comes to being around other people. Mainly this comes off as being... Continue Reading →
Sometimes in order to keep your sanity you need to make changes. This past weekend I made the choice to quit my job. A lot of factors went into this decision, but ultimately the most important factor was putting my overall wellbeing above the "benefits" I was getting from it. I don't think it has... Continue Reading →
I saw her face again today. Except, the reality check hit when I remembered it couldn't be her face. She died over 3 years ago. We weren't close by any means. We were coworkers who were friends at work, but not outside of it. After I quit, I would always go to find her if... Continue Reading →
This past month has been generally really good for me. However, I did have a few episodes with anxiety. I have begun expressing my anxiety as situational; meaning it is coming from the situation I am in. Then there is the unexplained anxiety; the kind where you don't know where it is coming from but... Continue Reading →
This post was sparked by hearing about the suicides of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain. I do not keep up with the news much anymore because of the negativity and anxiety it tends to give me. I happened to see a post on my Facebook newsfeed today for a suicide hotline. The post talked about... Continue Reading →
I know I talk a lot about my anxiety and depression, but there is something else that I haven't covered yet. I actually did not even know this was a legitimate thing until recently. Paranoid Personality Disorder I have not been formally diagnosed with this, but when I read more about it, the more it... Continue Reading →
