In some ways I categorize my depression as bipolar. I have never been diagnosed as bipolar, but it wouldn’t shock me if I was. When I say my depression is bipolar, I mean that it isn’t always a constant thing. Sometimes I feel nothing but sadness, for no reason. Other times, I am completely happy. Sometimes it changes in the matter of minutes. While other times a “phase” can last several days.
Lately, I have been on the happy side. Though that doesn’t mean I haven’t had my moments of other feelings, too. In general, my happiness has been outweighing the sadness.
I attribute a lot of it to my blog. I write a lot about what I am feeling, it takes the burden away. For the most part, I share those feelings publicly. I think I have 3 or 4 posts that are set to private because they are meant just for me. It becomes a reference so that I can understand why I react the way I do to things. It even helps me dig deeper into my feelings.
Let me insert a necessary disclaimer here.
I am in no way, shape, or form a medical professional. I am just a person with opinions and the will to help. Do not take what I say as law.
With that being said, let me move on. One common issue people with depression face is not wanting to be on medication. Granted, some people absolutely need medication. Talk with your health care provider and you can decide what works best for you. As for me, medicine is not something I am a fan of. I tried antidepressants before, but they made me feel worse. Since then, I vowed to myself that I would take natural approaches and find coping mechanisms to get through my spells.
Here are three things that help me.
- Get it out! I think many people with depression could attest to this. Harboring feelings only harvests more darkness. When you release the dark energy, you feel so much better. You may find peace in writing or talking. If you take the time to process it, you will feel better.
- Hobbies. Having something to fall back on can be beneficial when you need to pull yourself out of a rut. For instance, sometimes when I am down, I sing. I find something that makes me happy and I gravitate to that when I am down. You could draw, color, paint, sing, dance, and many other things. Once you find what you like (and what works) you sort of make it a hobby.
- Head on. Often times sadness comes from a particular place, circumstance, or relationship. If you know what’s causing it, tackle it head on. For instance, if you’re depressed because you did not receive closure, then seek it. Whatever it is, do it with a clear and open mind.
It is very easy to let the darkness consume you. You have to be able to hold yourself accountable and say, “Not today, depression. Not today. Today I am choosing my feelings and they are going to be good ones.”