I feel like I haven't been as present on here lately. Partly because of some writer's block and partly because I have been very exhausted. My insomnia has been back for over a month now, sleeping roughly 3 to 4 hours a night but definitely not consecutively. I think it is because I have been... Continue Reading →
You would think after all this talk about mental illness, we would be getting somewhere positive to make an actual difference in society. I have seen and heard first hand how broken the system is. I understand why people do not "reach out for help" and end up in a terrible place. I would like... Continue Reading →
Hold on a second while I gather my thoughts... I apologize in advance if this is jumpy, but I just feel compelled to write this out. For the last 2 weeks, consistently, I have felt a sense of urgency. Like there is something missing in my life. It used to be this feeling when I... Continue Reading →
To say things have been tough would be an understatement. (I am not talking about the chaos going on in the world right now). When I was officially diagnosed with things [OCD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, most likely Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD] few weeks ago, I didn't know what knowing all of that would mean... Continue Reading →
When you spend the majority of your life a certain way, you can only assume that it is normal. It wasn't until maybe 2 years ago that I found out not everyone has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and the like. Even in hearing other people's testimony about the way their "normal" brains work, didn't... Continue Reading →
A couple months ago I received an email saying that my primary care provider was no longer going to be in practice this Summer. I literally just started seeing her this last year when my other primary doctor left the practice. Anyways, I wasn't sure what that would mean for continuing my meds, so I... Continue Reading →
I have been in the darkness this last week. In partial because of my mental illnesses, but I think the quarantined lifestyle has made matters worse. You would think it would not be that traumatic for a person who has been a stay at home parent for 6 years. Granted, that started with only 1... Continue Reading →
Honestly, I am so glad this year is finally over. I went into 2019 with my head held high and it didn't take long for it to start knocking me down. It has been a serious roller coaster ride! I saw this end of the year reflection questionnaire post [ found here ] and thought... Continue Reading →
Well, this isn't Christmas related, but it is important to me nonetheless. Today is my 30th birthday. 30. Wowza! Most people cringe at the idea of aging, but I personally find it beautiful. I don't usually like making a huge stink about myself, but this year I have been a tad emotional about being 30.... Continue Reading →
The last time I gave an update was a little over a month ago in my reality and meds update post. Things were pretty bad around that time. I had sent a message to my doctor asking about the side effects of the medication that I was on. Unfortunately it was on a weekend so... Continue Reading →
