I feel like I haven't been as present on here lately. Partly because of some writer's block and partly because I have been very exhausted. My insomnia has been back for over a month now, sleeping roughly 3 to 4 hours a night but definitely not consecutively. I think it is because I have been... Continue Reading →
You would think after all this talk about mental illness, we would be getting somewhere positive to make an actual difference in society. I have seen and heard first hand how broken the system is. I understand why people do not "reach out for help" and end up in a terrible place. I would like... Continue Reading →
I am feeling a bit coocoo all the sudden today. I have been very open when it comes to my mental illnesses and struggles that come with that. Today, I am really in a deep errm, meditation?, with myself. The other day I saw a post on Facebook my cousin had shared and it included... Continue Reading →
When my husband and I first met (2010) I only had 2 lines of credit and no other debt. The only debt he had was his car. I was a supervisor of lawn and garden at Walmart. I made decent money as a 20 year old. We moved in together at the end of 2010.... Continue Reading →
Hold on a second while I gather my thoughts... I apologize in advance if this is jumpy, but I just feel compelled to write this out. For the last 2 weeks, consistently, I have felt a sense of urgency. Like there is something missing in my life. It used to be this feeling when I... Continue Reading →
For those of you who know me or have followed my journey for awhile have seen the ongoing, never ending, transformation of my hair. I have had black hair, red, purple, pink, orange, teal, blonde, and galactic colors. Yes I have had "natural" colors, too. I just feel more like myself when my hair is... Continue Reading →
To say things have been tough would be an understatement. (I am not talking about the chaos going on in the world right now). When I was officially diagnosed with things [OCD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, most likely Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD] few weeks ago, I didn't know what knowing all of that would mean... Continue Reading →
When you spend the majority of your life a certain way, you can only assume that it is normal. It wasn't until maybe 2 years ago that I found out not everyone has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and the like. Even in hearing other people's testimony about the way their "normal" brains work, didn't... Continue Reading →
A couple months ago I received an email saying that my primary care provider was no longer going to be in practice this Summer. I literally just started seeing her this last year when my other primary doctor left the practice. Anyways, I wasn't sure what that would mean for continuing my meds, so I... Continue Reading →
Day 19. CREATE A RELAXING SPACE. I had a mentally rough night last night. Followed by basically an all nighter with the baby. Long story short, I really wanted to spend the day in bed. That didn't happen though. All day I was thinking about how I could create a relaxing space and what that... Continue Reading →
