Day 19. CREATE A RELAXING SPACE. I had a mentally rough night last night. Followed by basically an all nighter with the baby. Long story short, I really wanted to spend the day in bed. That didn't happen though. All day I was thinking about how I could create a relaxing space and what that... Continue Reading →
Well, this isn't Christmas related, but it is important to me nonetheless. Today is my 30th birthday. 30. Wowza! Most people cringe at the idea of aging, but I personally find it beautiful. I don't usually like making a huge stink about myself, but this year I have been a tad emotional about being 30.... Continue Reading →
The last time I gave an update was a little over a month ago in my reality and meds update post. Things were pretty bad around that time. I had sent a message to my doctor asking about the side effects of the medication that I was on. Unfortunately it was on a weekend so... Continue Reading →
Well, I fell off the wagon again. Originally when I started the 31 days of Halloween posts, I had every intention of posting something everyday. I was not expecting things to happen the way that they did and have felt like these Halloween posts were a deflection from my reality. So, here I am once... Continue Reading →
Well, I neglected a couple of days with my meds posts, but when you are busy with 3 kiddos that tends to happen. Not much of a change to report, I still feel pretty good mentally. I have had an annoying headache and some nausea the last 2 days, but it could be the weather... Continue Reading →
Still here and still kickin'! I haven't really noticed any side effects yet, so that is nice. To be honest, I am hoping that I don't experience any and that this will be a one brand show (not having to switch pills). Though, I still have not really been sleeping much because of my back... Continue Reading →
Today was the first day I took my antidepressant. I decided last night to take it in the mornings because I read it could cause more insomnia problems (which I already have enough of). I also told myself last night that when it came time to take it I was not going to overthink it,... Continue Reading →
I am coming to you out of a near panic attack state that won't wind down. Usually writing it out helps me feel better, so here I am. For the last 4 or 5 days I have been on the edge. Stupid petty things are becoming triggering again and I no longer can choke it... Continue Reading →
Embraced in a hug he asks, "are you okay?" "Am I ever truly okay?" She says while holding back the same tears she has been consumed with for eternity. Happy memories become faded behind a door of shame and self wallowing. Itching to defeat the dark monster, but consumed with the thoughts of ending all... Continue Reading →
