I feel like I haven't been as present on here lately. Partly because of some writer's block and partly because I have been very exhausted. My insomnia has been back for over a month now, sleeping roughly 3 to 4 hours a night but definitely not consecutively. I think it is because I have been... Continue Reading →
To say things have been tough would be an understatement. (I am not talking about the chaos going on in the world right now). When I was officially diagnosed with things [OCD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, most likely Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD] few weeks ago, I didn't know what knowing all of that would mean... Continue Reading →
When you spend the majority of your life a certain way, you can only assume that it is normal. It wasn't until maybe 2 years ago that I found out not everyone has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and the like. Even in hearing other people's testimony about the way their "normal" brains work, didn't... Continue Reading →
A couple months ago I received an email saying that my primary care provider was no longer going to be in practice this Summer. I literally just started seeing her this last year when my other primary doctor left the practice. Anyways, I wasn't sure what that would mean for continuing my meds, so I... Continue Reading →
This post may seem all over the place, but my thoughts tend to be. So, I apologize in advance if it gets confusing 😬. In my family, I know who I am. I am a mother and a wife. But, who am I outside of that? What is my personal identity? I have been working... Continue Reading →
The last time I gave an update was a little over a month ago in my reality and meds update post. Things were pretty bad around that time. I had sent a message to my doctor asking about the side effects of the medication that I was on. Unfortunately it was on a weekend so... Continue Reading →
Well, I neglected a couple of days with my meds posts, but when you are busy with 3 kiddos that tends to happen. Not much of a change to report, I still feel pretty good mentally. I have had an annoying headache and some nausea the last 2 days, but it could be the weather... Continue Reading →
As things have just progressively gotten worse over the last 2 years, I decided it was time. Ever since Pickle started preschool I have wondered if something was "wrong". I say "wrong" in quotes because having a condition or disability is not wrong, but since it is not normal and interferes with things that is... Continue Reading →
Why!? Why do I have so much anger that I have the shortest fuse out of anyone I know? They claim you become your environment. That your behavior is learned. Growing up, my dad was always seemingly angry (that is when he was around). He was constantly yelling at us; threatening us with belts and... Continue Reading →
Day Six. Work on coping skills you've neglected or that have grown rusty. To be honest I feel like my entire life is happening in the upside down right now. There is not one aspect of my life that is calm or to be honest, even joyful. Everything is pure chaos and I am just... Continue Reading →
