To say things have been tough would be an understatement. (I am not talking about the chaos going on in the world right now). When I was officially diagnosed with things [OCD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, most likely Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD] few weeks ago, I didn't know what knowing all of that would mean... Continue Reading →
When you spend the majority of your life a certain way, you can only assume that it is normal. It wasn't until maybe 2 years ago that I found out not everyone has experienced depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and the like. Even in hearing other people's testimony about the way their "normal" brains work, didn't... Continue Reading →
A couple months ago I received an email saying that my primary care provider was no longer going to be in practice this Summer. I literally just started seeing her this last year when my other primary doctor left the practice. Anyways, I wasn't sure what that would mean for continuing my meds, so I... Continue Reading →
As things have just progressively gotten worse over the last 2 years, I decided it was time. Ever since Pickle started preschool I have wondered if something was "wrong". I say "wrong" in quotes because having a condition or disability is not wrong, but since it is not normal and interferes with things that is... Continue Reading →
Why!? Why do I have so much anger that I have the shortest fuse out of anyone I know? They claim you become your environment. That your behavior is learned. Growing up, my dad was always seemingly angry (that is when he was around). He was constantly yelling at us; threatening us with belts and... Continue Reading →
I have been quite frank about the relationship, or lack there of, between my biological dad and myself. Back in August, our family had what seemed like "the final fall". All due to the choices that he was making and continuing to put others before his children. A lot of my "emotional trauma" over the... Continue Reading →
A couple of weeks ago, I hit a rough patch. I won't get into details of that right now. I have mentioned before that I have a short fuse. Along with my short fuse, I also have a tendency to hold onto things (unresolved things). In the midst of this rough patch, I got the... Continue Reading →
People come and people go. As I have gotten older, I have started to realize who values me as person verses those who seek nothing but to take advantage of me in some shape or form. I remember in health class, being told that our brains are not fully mature until around 25 years old.... Continue Reading →
And she laid there. With her chin nestled on the pillow that was rolled up under her neck. She was starring off into the realm of her fitted sheet, with so much wonder and a bucket full of little trinkets dancing around in her head. She's removing the toxins from her life, she no longer has... Continue Reading →
Things are intense right now. Dad just left the house for another woman. Mom is a mess, not knowing what to do. Try to find the good in things. Don’t let your anger control you because then you will end up like me, short fused. It is okay to be sad, but know none of... Continue Reading →
