Only a small update..
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Thank you to everyone who gave me advice and positive vibes on my last post! It truly helped! I think I have it figured out now in order to finally be able to get it to leave me alone.
I have really been working hard on prioritizing myself so that I can live my best life. This was one of those things that sometimes holds me back. Now that I think I found the reason why, I can work on that.