“Bad habits, bad habits. Every body has them, who you got to blame?” -Kottonmouth Kings-
Part of my social anxiety is over analyzing everything that I say. I will replay conversations in my head and sometimes I feel like the other person could have totally misunderstood what it was I meant.
For example, for Pickle’s first birthday (nearly 5 years ago now) I distinctively remember my cousin had gotten him this airport set. I had made the comment that we had looked at it when we were shopping for a gift and went with something else instead. Now, 2 hours after the fact I kept replaying that moment in my head and kicking myself in the rearend. I didn’t mean it as if it was something we didn’t want. Honestly at the time it was more than we wanted to spend on a gift. For some reason though it kept replaying over and over again. Like I had made a big mistake even though that was not my intentions what so ever. Now I don’t know that anyone took it in the manner that my anxiety is telling me, but that moment still replays in my head.
I tend to do this a lot. Replaying moments and thinking, “oh my gosh they probably think I am a dingdong or heartless”. I guess anxiety could be considered a bad habit in a way..?
Getting to what I had started this post for…
I know everyone has bad habits. I am trying to work on mine. I have realized lately that I may come off as conceited. In typical conversations someone will say something having to do with their life, and for the most part, I have some kind of similar situation in my life. I have a tendency to respond with a “here is what happened to me” story to show them that I understand where they are coming from. My anxiety, once again, has begun telling me that these people probably think I’m a crap friend because I keep redirecting to myself. Though my intentions are not to make everything about me. I can see how it may come off that way, though.
I am trying to focus less on my life experiences when people talk to me, even if I feel 100% relatable to them. Perhaps I am over analyzing once again, but it is a habit I am trying to break.
What are your bad habits?