Where to even begin…
To say this past month has been a struggle is a bit of an understatement. In the grand scheme, it could have been way worse. I just know it also could have been a heck of a lot better, too.
I have been maintaining my weight, which is better than gaining back the weight I have lost. The downfall is, it has been a month essentially wasted. I was and am hoping to reach my goal weight by September. That gives me 40 pounds to go til then. I know it is possible if I stick to the plan 100%. I am just finding that harder and harder to do these days.
I am sick of salads.
On occasion I have been having grains again and I have enjoyed a few desserts. Though, I am surprised that I have done so well not actually craving grains. I just haven’t been throwing them away if it happens to come on what ever food I order. <—We have been eating take out a lot the last few weeks. With the busy-ness of packing, moving, unpacking, working, appointments, and everyday life we just haven’t been home as much. I also have not had much energy and motivation to do anything else, so the gym has been on the back burner.
In a way, I feel like I have been enjoying myself more because I am not so “restricted”. At the same time, there have been consequences. –>Eating the foods that I have not eaten for 3 months, makes me sick fairly quickly. I become drowsy, nauseated, and lazy. Which is not a fun feeling when you have boxes that need unpacked or children who want you to play with them.
Random note: I also have started on my insomnia phase again. It definitely hinders weightloss. I think I am going to start tracking this to see if I can find any sort of pattern.
Even with all of that being said, I know this journey is mine and I know only I am in charge of my decisions. I know that my current plan (Reduce phase on the Profile Plan) is not my permanent one. It isn’t that I will always be “restricted”. It is learning to have control over what I eat, when I eat, and how much I eat. I have most of that down habitually now. I know these “cheats” will cost extra in a day: adding extra water and more physical activity.
As it sits right now I am down 33 pounds and maintaining that. I have 40 to go to my goal. I wanted to hit my goal by time I am due to be in a wedding, which is about 14 weeks away (if I counted right). That means I need to lose about 3 pounds a week, which is what I averaged while being 100% on plan. I know I can do it if I want it bad enough. Some days I just lack the want/care. I just don’t need that becoming a permanent habit again.
I’m moving forward and moving on and that is what counts. I hope my 5 month update has some goal shattering announcements.
Bring it on!
-Jenn
Reclaiming My Sanity 