One of the most important things of any relationship is trust. When you come from a background like mine, it is hard to give anyone 100% of your trust. I have always struggled with trusting anyone. So much so, that anyone I meet is automatically placed lower on the trust scale. Which may seem unfair, but my experiences have shown me that no one is worthy of 100%.
For me, when trust is broken, it is extremely difficult to get it back, if at all. How can I look past something when I already have been through it negatively? How can trust be earned back when I constantly have to question motives and sincerity?
If I assume someone is being honest and then later find out they weren’t, then I am the fool. If it happens again, then what does that make me?
If it’s never the same, but you can’t walk away from the relationship, how do you go about fixing it? Do you live with the fact that you are possibly being lied to still? All the thoughts are overwhelming, it is making me feel like I am a crazy person. How to cope?