After going through Blogmas, I realized how much I enjoyed writing to a theme of something. I was trying to think of how I wanted to start the new year off, writing/substance wise. I have been dealing with some emotional issues the last few weeks. However, I didn’t want to start off the new year with all the negativity. Part of me working on myself is focusing on positive things. So I came up with this theme as I was just laying here with a song stuck in my head.
Everyday, for the month of January, I am going to write about one song. It will be the song that is stuck in my head that day, because let’s face it I always have at least one. I will try to insert or link the song if possible, but will for sure have the lyrics for you.
So onto Day 1.
It is 245am and I, like I said, have been dealing with emotions. I then started browsing my Pinterest, for no real specific reason. I saw my board titled “rhythms of my soul” and clicked on it. I was scrolling through the different chorus lines, or what have you, of the various bands and songs that I like. But for some reason, a different song popped into my head. Apparently this is a lesser known song of this band because it was nowhere to be found on Pinterest.
This song brings me back to high school. I listened to this song a lot and can sing it word for word. Sometimes I like to pretend I know how to rap 😂 (not freestyle, just with the songs). So here we have the song Under The Moon by the insane clown posse (ICP).
I was just a child, but you seemed like so much more
The way you would approach me and drift across the floor
I’d see you in the hall and you’d kiss me with a smile
I never understood it was I even worth your while?
The other kids at school they would hit me and they’d spit
Cause I was just a no one, to them I wasn’t shit
But you would always help me and stand there by my side
We were only seventeen we’d be together til we died
But then it all happened on the ever dreadful day
Somebody tried to rape you and now I’ll make him pay
You pointed him out to me, my thoughts began to race
I took my daddy’s 45 and shot him in the fucking face!
I did it all for you and though I’m facing years
I would do the time just to equal all your tears
The last thing that you told me when I left the court room
Is that we’d always be together cause we’re both under the moon
I’ll forever love you, even if you’re doomed
We’ll always be together cause we’re both under the moon]
I sit here in my cell and the walls are made of stone
I justified your pain but now I sit alone
I write another letter, I write one everyday
I never got a letter back, I write em anyway
I try to call collect, your number has been changed
I’m staring at the lightbulb and I start to feel the rage
You never came to visit me, I sit facing the glass
No one’s on the other side now it’s in the past
My head is always spinning I’m pounding at the wall
I feel like I’m forgotten no sign of you at all
You’re probably getting married you’re probably getting fucked
I’ll break out of this cage and try to cut that mother fucker up
I curl up in the corner my body will corrode
My teeth are turning into dust, skin is growing mold
I’m staring at the window of my eternal doom
I know that you are out there, somewhere underneath the moon
Chorus (1 time)
Many many years many more to go
Does she still remember? God, he only knows
I now become a savage, they chain me to a wall
I still can see your body I still can hear your call
I’m nothing but a maggot, I’m locked away and lost
The world it doesn’t want me, my dignity is tossed
And to the girl for whom I feel this doom
Fuck you and the moon
Hey! Fuck you and the moon (5 times)
[Chorus 8 times]
I‘m still here under the moon