People come and people go. As I have gotten older, I have started to realize who values me as person verses those who seek nothing but to take advantage of me in some shape or form. I remember in health class, being told that our brains are not fully mature until around 25 years old. I think that the maturing brain may be the reason behind my sudden realization of wanting to rid my life of those who seek to bring negativity to it.
For many years, I have held onto hope that one day things would be different and my expectations would be fulfilled. I no longer have that hope because I know I cannot control the behavior of others. I do not have the ability to make people see from outside of their own minds, to fully understand the condemning they have caused. Amid all my frustrations and anger, I had to make a decision. A decision that would be life changing in a bold, necessary, yet sad way.
The decision to close the door on people who are supposed to be closest to you, is not for the faint of heart. At some point though, you must realize you are worth more than what they make you feel. Toxic relationships are exactly that, toxic. Nobody wins in a toxic relationship and it is best for both parties to go their own way. Closing the door on those people is necessary for us to find peace and live our life to the fullest.
In my life, I have had to close the door on a handful of people. People I thought would be there until my life’s end. Sometimes, I do find a bit of sadness knowing that they won’t be there. Sometimes, I am sad that I can’t be there for them in the way I would like to because of the toxicity that they bring, or that we bring to each other. Realistically I know that I am doing the right thing. Even if that means Moving On Without Healing. A life of toxic negativity is a life wasted.
-Jenn
Reclaiming My Sanity 